Life, work, and a mental explosion

I have not talked about boardgames in general yet and my love of them. Yesterday I played D&D and I would like to write a session report for that. But, I feel that my blog is not so much a "game review" location, but an area for me to stay on top of my thoughts and feelings. That being said, I am going to talk about what I want to do with my life.

I don't know.

I thought that I wanted to be a Montessori teacher. I even made the smart move of being an assistant for a year before I decided if it was what I wanted to do. I decided that it was and went to graduate school and then moved here to Phoenix for a teaching job. But that hasn't worked out for me. I seem to get too frustrated with administration. I also get frustrated when the children don't do what I expect them too. For anyone with children, or that works with children, this sounds like an idiotic statement. But what I mean is, when I do everything that I was taught, and I observe and analyze and try five different things, they still do something other than what I expect; and frankly, other than what I desire.

Looking back on my short list of posts, tt seems that I have been posting about my experiences teaching a lot. I made the error of thinking that I was going to graduate school to learn what I would do for the rest of my life. I also made the error of falling in love with Montessori and trusting it completely. Life is not full of black and white absolutes and now I need to figure out how to resolve this. Hopefully writing about it will do this.

If you've been following my blog you might be thinking at this point, what does it matter, she's not even teaching anymore, she's an office manager. Exactly. Do I want to be an office manager? Will I be bored with the job once I have learned everything there is to know? Will I continue to make egregious errors and be let go? (I made a major error that inconvenienced several people on Friday.) Is this the best use of my abilities, skills, and talents? I don't have the answers to these questions.

The one thing that I am sure of is that I am doing something positive in my life. I grew up in a union home and am 100% behind them. Beyond that, the more that I learn about SEIU the more that I support it. So at least I know that I am making the world a better place.

And maybe that is enough right now.

Thanks for listening to this mental explosion. Have a good Sunday.

Till tomorrow,

Amelia